After a recital I attended this weekend, I was inspired. So I wrote a little something.

If there’s a name on my mind
it’s probably yours.
If I chose to be anywhere
it would probably be with you.
And if I could tell you anything it would probably be,
I love you.

I know how you would react to this
that cold ‘did he really just say that’
I know how you would respond to this
the ‘we can’t be together’
Where the actual truth lies somewhere
in between lack of mutuality
and fear of commitment.

But what if I told you
that when I say
I love you,
I say it not to hear you repeat it
but instead to tell you
that you hold in your hand
not my aortic pump
(which does little but
beat faster in your presence)
but a chain attached to the very pillar
which supports the logical powerhouse
atop my shoulders and every move you make
shakes me to the core.

I know I’ll never really tell you this
because while mountains hold testament
to my physical confidence
my emotional assurance
can be found
safely resting on the point of a needle.

In any other case
there’s so much I would say and do.
I would write you a list
of all the things I love about you.
It would be the shortest list ever written,
as it would simply read
I would call you and tell you
how much my lips
miss your lips
and how your smell
makes even flowers jealous.
You would be the rhythm
I would be the beat
and we would dance to the melody
of a song of our own.

While I wouldn’t expect you
to say it back
I can’t pretend I don’t fantasize
you reading this
dropping everything
running into my arms
and never leaving.
But that’s selfish.
And I know it.

So I’ll keep convincing myself
we aren’t meant to be.
Gathering attention from
the farthest corners of the earth
to fill the void
only you could truly occupy.
Assessing your interest
and my own impossible desire for romance
I wonder if you feel this pressure
or if I’m the atlas of the tension.
In the end my coping results in one question:
do I need you,
or do I just need someone?


[106] workcycle
We all love someone way too fucking much. (via bruisedbbygirl)

(Source: hazelhirao, via egalimam)

87, 83, 69, 63, and 5! cheers : )

87. I won a talent show by beatboxing! And a few dance things too.
83. I am a really fast swimmer, but I can’t float due to muscle density. Having no fat makes it really tough. If I stop moving forward I sink quickly.
69. I haven’t taken dance lessons, but I’ve practiced dance for years. I would love to take lessons in swing and salsa.
63. My first concert was N Sync :D
5. I have not recently spent time with the gal I like

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1, 77, 90, 81, 52

1. No I wouldn’t have sex with the last person I texted.
77. I sure have been in love! I’d say twice.
90. Have sex whenever you want and are ready. Waiting for marriage is stupid and puts unnecessary pressure on the most basic human act.
81. Coffee I guess. I have both just as often.
52. Of course musicals are cheesy. Isn’t that half the fun? :)

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  • 1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
  • 2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
  • 3. Have you taken someones virginity?
  • 4. Is trust a big issue for you?
  • 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
  • 6. What are you excited for?
  • 7. What happened tonight?
  • 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
  • 9. Is confidence cute?
  • 10. What is the last beverage you had?
  • 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
  • 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
  • 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
  • 14. What are you going to spend money on next?
  • 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
  • 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
  • 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
  • 18. The last time you felt broken?
  • 19. Have you had sex today?
  • 20. Are you starting to realize anything?
  • 21. Are you in a good mood?
  • 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
  • 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
  • 24. What do you want right this second?
  • 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
  • 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
  • 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
  • 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
  • 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
  • 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
  • 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
  • 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
  • 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
  • 34. Listening to?
  • 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
  • 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
  • 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • 38. Who did you last call?
  • 39. Who was the last person you danced with?
  • 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
  • 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
  • 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
  • 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
  • 44. Do you tan in the nude?
  • 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
  • 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
  • 47. Who was the last person to call you?
  • 48. Do you sing in the shower?
  • 49. Do you dance in the car?
  • 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
  • 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
  • 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
  • 53. Is Christmas stressful?
  • 54. Ever eat a pierogi?
  • 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
  • 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
  • 57. Do you believe in ghosts?
  • 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
  • 59. Take a vitamin daily?
  • 60. Wear slippers?
  • 61. Wear a bath robe?
  • 62. What do you wear to bed?
  • 63. First concert?
  • 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
  • 65. Nike or Adidas?
  • 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
  • 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
  • 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
  • 69. Ever take dance lessons?
  • 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
  • 71. Can you curl your tongue?
  • 72. Ever won a spelling bee?
  • 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
  • 74. What is your favorite book?
  • 75. Do you study better with or without music?
  • 76. Regularly burn incense?
  • 77. Ever been in love?
  • 78. Who would you like to see in concert?
  • 79. What was the last concert you saw?
  • 80. Hot tea or cold tea?
  • 81. Tea or coffee?
  • 82. Favorite type of cookie?
  • 83. Can you swim well?
  • 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
  • 85. Are you patient?
  • 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
  • 87. Ever won a contest?
  • 88. Ever have plastic surgery?
  • 89. Which are better black or green olives?
  • 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
  • 91. Best room for a fireplace?
  • 92. Do you want to get married?
  • I'll answer whatever you ask guys
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